i'm terribly disappointed and scared with how things are right now.

with the impending vivas list coming out, that's actually the least of my concerns.
seriously dunno what the fuck my brother is up to. screwing up his life away literally. if i dun do something drastic..worse is gonna come.

i hate having to face lies everyday, day in day out. from pple i used to trust. i'm in absolutely no mood to celebrate any shit right now. until i get my life back in order. i never expected it to be lydat. but i guess that's what's been making me lose my focus this year. that drive and focus that i've always had before. it's true. i just discovered. i have much much more problems outside of medicine.

and i shall generate a list of things i wanna do for the next 4 months! those i'm gonna accomplish man. i dun think i have time to go anywhere right now...so well some plans will have to be postponed....................argh dammit.